Prologue
To write a thought with probably no words is my mission for today or is it to give words to the thoughts that run haywire in head? I know not. For a someone who goes through it, it is coming face to face with what they call, is the ‘light’ while, for others it is experiencing the extreme darkness. Such are the ironies of life!
The Chapters
I knew not what it was to breathe, till the day I found that I had a heart in the flesh and bones I carried around. I wanted to shout my lungs out, I wanted to shout that word to celebrate that jubilation I felt, I wanted to shout, ‘Eureka!’ I had discovered the rhythm my heart danced to, I had found the excitement with which my blood ran through my veins, I had found ‘LIFE!’ and with it I found ‘Love’ and probably for the first time, I didn’t mind being suffocated, I didn’t mind being short wind and out of breath. I carried life in me, with me and I was in love with it, I am in love with it. I loved without a realisation in my heart how much. Facing the darkness, even if for a moment, left me as if blind, left me without my senses, facing the darkness, even if for a moment, left me a handicap. Even if for a moment, it left me EMPTY. That moment that breathed you, that moment that breathed me, that moment that breathed US. Oh! Sweet relief! It BREATHED.
Epilogue
That moment, as if etched in your heart forever brings life closer to you. That moment of realisation, when you realise the real worth.. I feel ever so grateful, I feel ever so close and I feel ever so glad. It brought me so many steps closer, oh so many steps! closer to God and my faith so strong. My God, my Nani, stay with us always always.
When people ask me to write something 'about me', I don't know what to write. I mean, what can I write here that you don't already know? Me? I am just another somebody trying to walk the walk and talk the talk. I am trying to get somewhere in this life. Where? I know not myself but I keep walking. I might be someone you saw on the road last week or someone who sat right next to you in the bus today. I am just another face in this crowd of somebodies and I keep walking just like every one of you. For a number of reasons probably ranging from curiosity to anxiety or simply just to get somewhere and sometimes I get tired, very tired. So, I stop and relax and watch everybody walk past. There is something very amusing about that. Something very inexplicable but it gives me strength to continue. More often than not, I find myself stumbling but I keep moving. And there are times when I am all alone, its times like these which allow me to listen to those sounds of silence. Sssssssh, it whispers to me and I feel like I am a part of those mystery movies which I enjoy watching so much. =) It gives sudden rush and I walk faster. Then, there are times when I am surrounded by people. A million faces, faces of all kinds, some etched to my heart and faces I forget the very next moment I see them. Confusing? Yes, this journey is. Unfathomable and I keep walking. God put a smile upon my face, so I smile and I make sure that that smile reaches my eyes. It's the very same God, who gave me tears, so there I times when I cry. I absolutely love somethings because I have heart. Heh. I didn't make me, so, there are somethings that make me frown, things I don't like and there are people who don't like me. Just like is the case with every other somebody. To most, I mean nothing, to some I mean something and then there are those few, a number howsoever small, these are those few to whom, I mean everything. Just like everybody else, I am that somebody that you see, walking, from your bedroom window, that somebody who is trying to get somewhere. So, what can I write here 'about me' that you don't already know?
